I need to work on my PMA.\u00a0 What is that, you might ask?\u00a0 Well, it’s my Positive Mental Attitude.\u00a0 I know it sounds like some sort of corporate catch-phrase, but the first time I heard it was actually when I was at camp in something like the 4th or 5th grade.\u00a0 Anyhow, lately mine has sucked and I need to get a handle on it.\u00a0 Sleep lately has been hard to achieve, Bubba hasn’t been sleeping well and Bean has been sick, so as a result, Mommy has been like a creature out of Night of the Living Dead.\u00a0 I have good days, but somehow I tend to screw them up with my bad attitude and end up angry with Bean, frustrated with Bubba and just pretty much ignore Hubby.\u00a0 Not good.\u00a0 For the longest time I have been blaming everyone but myself.\u00a0 Bean has been a brat, so of course I’m getting angry with her.\u00a0 Bubba hasn’t been sleeping, so of course I’m tired and cranky.\u00a0 And really, I only have so much “nurture” in me, so by the time Hubby gets home, there’s really nothing left for him.\u00a0 Besides, he’s a grown man and can fend for himself.\u00a0 These things are all valid, but I think I can do better.<\/p>\n
Maybe Bean is being more of a brat because I have been more of a bitch.\u00a0 Yes, I said it, I’ve been a big ol’ bitch lately!\u00a0 My temper is short and I’m quick to snap at my daughter.\u00a0 Why should she have a PMA if it’s not being modelled for her?\u00a0 So, I’m going to try and be more pleasant to her and see where that gets me.\u00a0 She’s been really whiney and cries for stupid reasons and I think maybe it’s just because she wants attention and at this point, she’ll take whatever kind of attention she can get.\u00a0 Poor kid!\u00a0 This one will take some work because she’s certainly learned how to push my buttons lately, but I think we can get back to our good relationship.<\/p>\n
As far as Bubba and my lack of sleep, well, there’s not a whole lot I can do there, but last night was a great night (10 hours of sleep for him!) so I’m hoping we’re turning a corner.\u00a0 But, if not, I just have to suck it up and use a little Mind Over Matter.\u00a0 If I don’t mind, it won’t matter.\u00a0 Right?\u00a0 I know, easier said than done, but I can’t walk around cranky all the time!<\/p>\n
So, today I am working on my PMA, which is beginning with getting my house a bit more in order.\u00a0 Over the past\u00a0month or so I’ve really let things go.\u00a0 It’s not dirty, I have a housekeeper that takes care of that, but it is untidy, which is my job.\u00a0 So, today I’m going to work on getting things together.\u00a0 When my house is cluttered and disorganized, it reflects in my general sense of well-being and can make me feel like things are spiralling out of control, even if they aren’t really.\u00a0 Today is a good day to start since I am more rested and feeling better, so if I can get a lot done, it will make the next time that I’m not so rested easier to deal with.\u00a0 That’s the plan at least!<\/p>\n
Today I am going to go room by room in my house and get things tidy.\u00a0 Each room that I finish will be treated like a little victory in my head.\u00a0 Instead of saying to myself, “damn, I have X number of rooms left to go!”, I will take joy in the fact that a new room is done!\u00a0 So far today, I have gotten the kitchen cleaned and tidy.\u00a0 It looks wonderful and makes me happy.\u00a0 I also took down the tent that has been up in our soon-to-be\u00a0 piano room (formerly the pool table room) and put away the multitudes of toys that Bean had stockpiled in there.\u00a0 Then I moved on to the playroom.\u00a0 Three rooms in my house are clean and organized!\u00a0 How cool is that!\u00a0 Plus, Bubba is down for a nap!\u00a0 Maybe I’ll take a minute or two to knit….after I clean one more room!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I need to work on my PMA.\u00a0 What is that, you might ask?\u00a0 Well, it’s my Positive Mental Attitude.\u00a0 I know it sounds like some sort of corporate catch-phrase, but the first time I heard it was actually when I … Continue reading